Looking Back

Today is what would have been my twelve year anniversary.  To say that I am sad and lonely is, you could say, an understatement.  However, it is only a part of how I feel.  A tiny, small, not-so-miniscule part of how I feel.  I am also thankful and at peace.  I am thankful for friends and family that have stuck by me and helped me get through the past two and a half years.  I am at peace, knowing in my heart that I am where God has wanted me to be.  I know that I am here for a reason, and that this has been part of my path.

I know that all that I am feeling, or that I have felt, are parts of who I am.  The good parts and the bad parts.  I also know that there are things that I need to work on, and things that only I can fix about myself.  The anger, the tears, the bitterness, the loneliness, that was all a part of Gods plan, and stuff I had to go through to make me who I am today. I am still not done growing in Christ, and honestly, I hope that I can continue to grow -- As a woman, as a Christian, as a Sister, a friend, a daughter.